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I need a majour distraction…. I’m not used to asking for help… but I guess there’s a first for everything

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Don’t say you know Ana until you’ve been up late at night starving because you decided to skip dinner.

Don’t say you know Ana until you’ve had headaches so terrible all you can do is lay in your room in the dark, the light hurts, and Ana won’t let you chew.

Don’t say you know Ana until you know how useless it is when people say “just eat”

Don’t say you know Ana until its 70 degrees outside and you’re shaking like its 17.

Don’t say you know Ana until you know what it’s like to hate food.

Don’t say you know Ana until you get anxiety around food.

Don’t say you know Ana if the scale doesn’t define, and diminish your self worth.

Don’t say you know Ana if you can walk around, confident, in the summer on the beach.

Don’t say you know Ana if you can eat a whole cheesesteak without feeling regret.

Don’t say you know Ana if she hasn’t, at some point, taken control of your mind.

Because when you meet Ana, Ana becomes you.

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- Don’t say you know Ana
S. Barberich
1-26-14 (via my-perfect-sanity)

"If you look at the fact that you have a roof over your head, food to eat, that you are young and beautiful and live in a peaceful land, then no, you have nothing to be sad about. But the fact is, we are not only a physical body, we have souls too, and sometimes our souls get sick. If you break a leg you don’t just say ‘I have no reason to have a broken leg’ and ignore it; you seek help. It’s the same when your soul gets hurt. Don’t apologize for being sad."

- My doctor when I told her I had no reason to be sad (via hrive-ithiliel)

MAJOUR REALIZATION:

I don’t want to kill myself, yeah I want to die but not by my own hand…. All those “suicidal” actions were just acts towards getting the fucking voices to shut the hell up….

catchingdreams111 said: Have you tried having an honest, deep conversation with him about it? Getting all your feelings out about it? I know that sometimes helps majorly.

He doesn’t want t talk about it. He thinks it should be okay for him to be able to say he loves me, which I don’t really agreement with /: but the whole relationship thing is out of the question completely. Umm he says that he’s sorry he hurt me but he just can’t be with me anymore. He says he misses me, and I’m pretty sure he means that in both a sexual and friendship kinda way because he asked me to Skype with him and to have sex with him. Umm is too busy to talk to talk to me anymore which I think is a load of crap because he’s no more busy than he used to be.

And yesterday he went on a date /: or should i say: I saw him on his date. And the only reason that sucks so much is because he promised he would tell me if he started dating someone.. so if he could break that promise then I can’t keep my hopes up that he won’t break the other promises he made.

BRAVE by Sara Bareilles   

I completely adore this song :*

What if you fall?

catchingdreams111:

But…
What if you fly?

Ana Mia Perry Olive Bri Sophie Izzy Cat Deb Sue

(Anorexia, Bulimia, OCD, Bipolar, Schizophrenic, Insomnia, Self Harm, Depression, Suicide)

It’s all my fault…… I deserve every cut and bruise…. worse even……… I wouldn’t doubt if he wanted me dead………